Can you see it; Every thing I have done in your life? There are moments in your life that you have asked me why I would allow things to happen in your life. The ones that made no sense and made your head swim. Those moments where you experienced so much pain. you where so mad that I didn’t tell you why I was allowing it or gave you no sign to answer your problems. Sometimes it is best if you don’t have a sign, it teaches you to rely on me not the sign. It is so silly yet painful to see you torcher yourself in trying to control the uncontrollable. When you hear an answer you didn’t want, you turn to things that distract you, don’t do this I want you to see that I am working.
I am with you, it just might look different then you thought. Remember when you asked for help in fixing your health? I was so proud of you, to make this decision knowing that this needed to be handled before entering the next chapter of your life. Yet, you forgot the prayer and still struggled with your health. I know you well my child, you have such a strong compassion that when other things demand your attention you forget about your health and daily habits.
I knew that for you to actually take care of your self I had to bring something into your life where your health affected other people. I Couldn’t help but smile as you asked me why this was happening. Not because I play games with you, I never do that to my children. I looked at you as if I was watching a child building a puzzle. You struggled with it a bit, I really did want to help you with it but if I did you would never know how to do them. Oh, your face when you figured it out! That is what made me smile, your smile of accomplishment. Now I know you don’t need me as much to show you which piece goes where. You are understanding me and how things work. See I know you my child, I see everything deeper.
sincerely- your Father.